In the darkness the trees are full of starlight (henwy) wrote,
In the darkness the trees are full of starlight
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Birthday Blues

Things have been better over the past day and a half or so. No clue what caused it but all of a sudden the pain receeded to a more bearable level. It's at the point now that I can stand it without the need for opiates, though it's never pleasant. Popping one when I need to sleep is certainly better than having to take them just to get past every moment of the day.

My birthday is this friday and it's hard to recall a more horrific leadup to it. It's been a horrific past few weeks and there's no telling how long this little window of relative calm is going to last. I'm still feeling sort of jittery and strung out, not in a drug sense but just emotionally. I imagine it'll be a while before I manage to crawl my way up to a more stable equalibrium.
Tags: birthdays, chronic pain
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