In the darkness the trees are full of starlight (henwy) wrote,
In the darkness the trees are full of starlight
henwy
  • Mood: exhausted

Life is pain, princess

I dunno what's going on entirely but the days since I've been back have been pretty horrid. I've been popping codeine like candy at times in order to keep some level of functionality, but it's not working all that great and tends to flip over into nausea. When at home and on a less frequent regimen, things are even worse. I just feel exhausted all the time. I can't manage to stay asleep for more than 3-4 hours at a time before pain wakes me and keeps me up for a couple hours and even the sleep I'm getting dosen't feel restful. If you add up all the hours I get in piecemeal, I should be doing better than I am. Instead, I'm sitting here feeling like I could fall over into a dead faint at any moment. I just can't figure it out and it's really starting to grate on me. It's like sitting around and feeling like you're being racked to death, but very, very slowly.

I wonder if this is because of the steroids. I did end up taking them for around 2 weeks straight while out of town. Maybe this is simply the price of going off of them. My body could easily have started producing less endogenous steroids as a compensatory response. Then when I go off the pills upon returning, it's shit city. You'd think that it would take longer than 2 weeks though.

Whatever the cause, I'm really not a happy camper right around now. It's even worse knowing that if I simply popped another steroid or two, I could probably buy myself some relief for a day. Feh.
Tags: chronic pain
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