In the darkness the trees are full of starlight (henwy) wrote,
In the darkness the trees are full of starlight

Stuck in limbo

I feel awful lately. There have just been a lot of issues involving sleep and pain management that I can't seem to right. I end up going through the day in night in a perpetual haze where I feel disorientated and owie. I imagine this is probably what it's like to be old and demented. Looks like I get a sneak peek of what it'd be like before I'm ever locked up in some senior center. The only difference is the lack of shuffleboard and I don't have to hurry to the cafeteria each day so I can get my meals.

I've tried my best to at least try to reverse my sleep shedule to no avail so far. It dosen't seem to matter when I try to sleep or how long I sleep when I do. I'm just constantly in a state of befuddled exhaustion. If I didn't know better, I'd be checking around for gas leaks and the like. As for the pain issues, notta I can really do about that other than pop pills and hope to blunt the worst of the problems. I'm just incredibly decrepit lately. It'd be a major struggle just to step out the door the way I've been feeling.

I don't need to ever draft a bucket list. This is already a living death.
Tags: chronic pain, insomnia

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