The pain is no longer just a deterrent. It's become full out incapacitation at times. It's simply not something that I can grit my teeth and move on through anymore.
Of course, I've been trying to take as few meds as possible lately which no doubt adds to my difficulty. I can always hope that if I pop pills like a hophead starting tuesday, I can maybe manage to survive. It'll be 5 days in origins and if I burn through my entire stash, I should have enough pills to keep me on the verge of vomiting the entire time. That does mean that I'll be just about empty by the time I get back, but I can't worry about that now.
If I didn't agree to help Playroom out, I'd back out right now. I never thought it would be this bad.