In the darkness the trees are full of starlight (henwy) wrote,
In the darkness the trees are full of starlight

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I feel like a moron

I just suffered my very first overdraft fee ever. I'd like to say that it wasn't completely my fault and if my damn bank had just updated the account history in a timely manner it wouldn't have happened but, in the end, I pulled the trigger. I can't help but feel this might be the first step into a downward spiral. Who knows what could happen next. I might start using payday loan companies. I could start using layaway. I could even, god forbid, use western union to send money to Nigeria. Anything is possible now that I've stepped into the abyss.

Part of the cause is that money is tight. Despite the fact that I was selling all that crap, the margins are tiny and I was selling some of it for Connie in the first place. It's hard to remember that when you see these huge sums of cash add up on paper. Then it comes time to pay all the bills and fees and poof, it's all gone. It doesn't help that I did buy myself a digital camera, the flip mino, and more DS games than you can shake a stick at.

On the plus side, the federal government has deemed fit to raise my meager income. Since telling you the actual sum would be depressing, let me instead tell you the far more impressive figure of 10%. Hell, if I had a normal career, a 10% pay raise would be something to cheer about. As it stands in my situation, I can probably buy myself another one and a half DS games a month if I felt so inclined. Still, it's no reason to feel bitter. I'm far better off than lotsa people and it's only through comparing the situation to what could have been that it feels so depressing.
Tags: money

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