The funny thing is that while I spend all these hours waiting for the pain to go away, it's often a surprise when it does. It's like it sneaks up on me and there's always a moment of surprised realization that it's gone and things are spiffy again. You would think I would then take advantage of the respite to get to sleep, after all that's what the pain had been preventing, but that's almost never the case. It's as if somewhere I feel like it'd be wasting the pain-free safe zone I've been granted and that I should actually use it to do something. It's usually at least a few hours down the line before exhaustion builds and catches up with me. This phenomenon no doubt has contributed to a lot of the sleep disturbance I've experienced over the years. Of course, it was a lot more problematic back in the days where I had a daily schedule and things I needed to get done. Now, it's just a point of interest and explains a little about why my activity cycle always trends toward the nocturnal.
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Pain and sleep
The funny thing is that while I spend all these hours waiting for the pain to go away, it's often a surprise when it does. It's like it sneaks up on me and there's always a moment of surprised realization that it's gone and things are spiffy again. You would think I would then take advantage of the respite to get to sleep, after all that's what the pain had been preventing, but that's almost never the case. It's as if somewhere I feel like it'd be wasting the pain-free safe zone I've been granted and that I should actually use it to do something. It's usually at least a few hours down the line before exhaustion builds and catches up with me. This phenomenon no doubt has contributed to a lot of the sleep disturbance I've experienced over the years. Of course, it was a lot more problematic back in the days where I had a daily schedule and things I needed to get done. Now, it's just a point of interest and explains a little about why my activity cycle always trends toward the nocturnal.
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