blahIt wasn't that big of a deal in the beginning because I would simply sleep early on and then fall asleep again after. The problem is that the old formication problem is back. I'm not even sure if formication is the right word to describe it since it doesn't really feel like ants on the skin. There is a tingly component but it's more ephemeral than feeling anything close to an actual touch, but it's just as unbearable. Trying to sleep while it's going on is simply an impossibility. I also have no clue what's causing it, though I have two theories. The first is that it could always be blood sugar related. The last time this happened, the worst stretch was right around the time when blood sugar seemed to be out of control and god knows I haven't exactly made an effort lately, gaining back much of the weight I had lost. It could also be something to do with the opiates. I've taken far, far less of my drugs lately, sometimes able to skip a dose entirely. It makes me wonder if the cut back has caused me to go into withdrawal and this is just one of the side effects. God knows heroin addicts describe a really unpleasant time when they don't get their fix and it'd be insane to believe I wasn't at least physically dependent after all these years.
Either way, no matter what is causing it specifically, it's really starting to grate on me. I just can't sleep, even when I'm tired and only manage to doze off when I'm absolutely exhausted. This wouldn't be that bad if my waking periods were still functional, but for the most part I'm in a zombie state and just lying there doing not a hell of a lot. If I could at least use the time to do Mechanical Turk tasks or ring up more swagbucks, it might be so bad but it's almost completely wasted time. This whole situation also doesn't bode well considering that I'll be leaving town in a week and a half for Chicago and then for Gencon. God knows I have problems enough sleeping while traveling even without this. During dexcon a couple weeks ago I would have to lie in bed each night for at least 2-3 hours before managing to sleep and sometimes far more, which turned what should have been around 8 hours of sleep a night into less than 4 per averaged across the con.
Instead of just trying to wait the problem out and hope it goes away like last time or even trying to figure out what the root causes might be, I've decided to pharmacologically nuke the problem from orbit. My grandmother has a prescription for Ambien or some other sleep drug which she only takes half of. I've asked to get a few pills and I'm going to see if I can use it to forcibly wrench my sleep schedule into something resembling normalcy. My mom's going to bring over some of it later today and I'll get to see if it really works as well as everyone claims. If my grandmother is to be believed, simply popping half a pill is enough to conk her out within 10-15 minutes and then keep her zonked for 6 hours. I don't think I'll have any problems staying asleep, it's just getting there that's a problem. I need something to overcome that formication-like experience and after that I think I'll be fine. If it ends up working well, I'll take a bunch of the pills with me on the trip and it might be a nice novelty to actually get to sleep exactly when I want to. Only time will tell though.
