It's probably just telling that I would automatically think of such a labor-intensive endeavor as being a chore or work. I know people often talk about having a job that they love and that they would almost do it without the pay, but it's not anything I've ever experienced in my life. I wonder if things hadn't derailed so badly, I would have had a chance to actually find something like that. Then again, many people have also said that no matter how much fun you have at something, the minute it becomes a career, a lot of that fun is drained away. Instead of solely being something you do for enjoyment, you now have to follow a schedule and your output is measured and evaluated. No doubt part of the fun of any hobby, is the the freedom it offers. You can pick it up or drop it at will, which disappears once it becomes a job.
I was just thinking about all of this in relation to this blog and my inability to keep up with it to the degree that I would like. Someone else on facebook was talking about a sleepless night he spent watching Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood. I had also seen the show and enjoyed it a lot. It was actually the second attempt to turn the Fullmetal Alchemist manga into an anime, and it surpassed its predecessor in a lot of ways. For one, it stuck far more closely to the actual story related in the manga with few deviations. The first series, on the otherhand, had a story which was cobbled together from disparate bits and pieces, mixing canon events with filler. There was also a very episodic factor to the show I found obnoxious as it often became the search for the faux Philosopher Stone of the week.
As I was commenting on facebook about this, I thought it would be spiffy to find my review of FMA: Brotherhood and link it there just in case anyone was interested in my take on the show. I searched through my livejournal only to find that no such entry existed. All I had there was a review of the first anime series. It seems that FMA: Brotherhood was just another show which I had watched, intended to write some commentary about, and then completely failed to follow through on. If I really think about it, this happens quite often and I feel a bit annoyed and disappointed in myself. You'd think that I could at least jot down a few paragraphs, but there are times that writing in here just feels like work. I wonder if part of the procrastination factor is that I know so few people would actually read it in the first place even if I had, and almost no one would have known what I was talking about anyway. It was just unusual in this case that I was actually interested in my thoughts at the time since most of these entries will just float into the temporal ether, never to be read again by me or anyone else.
I guess I should just be happy I'm not a real blogger or anything like that. I'd probably be tying myself into knots trying to meet 'deadlines'. Then again, the structure and reward could actually have been a good thing. Oh well, it's all pie in the sky anyway. Still, I wonder if I did set deadlines for myself it it would actually make me follow through, or if I would just end up ignoring them because I know there are no consequences for doing so. Even as I type this, I still have the whole gencon recap looming over me and that job's getting no smaller while I dither. Procrastination has just got me by the balls.