As hard as it's been to figure out exactly how to classify this feeling, it's also been hard to figure out what's causing it. I've got more suspects than usual lately too thanks to the fact that I've been cutting back on the opiates. I've often taken the drugs just for preventative measures much like insurance. You never know when things are going to start to suck so you have a little something on board to drown out the background owie. Lately though, the level of background crap has diminished to a point where as long as I'm not doing anything, I don't even need to pop the drugs. I've slowly decreased the dose over the past couple of weeks and haven't taken anything for 24 hours with no noticeable difference. What this does means is that it's almost certain I'm going through, or maybe even have been going through for a while now, physical withdrawal. Maybe?
It's hard for me to tell really. It's not like I was taking a metric shit-ton (that's official SI units btw) of drugs but the dose was more than high enough to set off drug tests at the doctor's office and I've been taking the whole slow-release opiates for over a year now. At the height when things were at its crappiest, I was probably taking the equivalent of around 100 mg of oxycodone a day. It's hard to tell how much that is on a relative scale, especially among addicts since there are always crazy nutjobs out there throwing off the curve. I just saw a site which claimed that they had a patient who was taking 16,000 mg a day, which is just f-ing unbelievable. Forget the fact that it must be a miracle that person isn't dead or a walking freak of nature and consider that the normal oxycodoone pill is only 5 mg. Even if we assumed he was taking the slow release oxycontin and smashing up the largest does of pill available (160 mg), it would still mean 100 pills a day. Did he work on the line of a pharmaceutical factory or something because even if he were knocking over entire pharmacies to steal their entire supply he'd probably have to loot one a month.
So anyway, I should be going through withdrawal at this point but I'm not noticing a lot of the symptomology.
The symptoms can include watery eyes, runny nose, yawning and sweating at first. They are sometimes followed by restlessness, irritability, loss of appetite, tremors, severe depression, vomiting, elevated heart rate and blood pressure, chills alternating with flushing, excessive sweating, pains in the bones and muscles of the back and extremities, and muscle spasms.
I don't think I'm really experiencing any of that. Or rather, any more of that than usual. Well, my nose has been a little runny lately but then again I've been sleeping with the window open and it's been like 50 degrees at night the past few days. Maybe I'm just overthinking all of this. At the very least I would love to know that the prickling sensation is just linked to the drugs and once they finish clearing my system it'll go away. It's been driving me bonkers lately. I end up not sleeping until exhaustion conks me out.