In the darkness the trees are full of starlight (henwy) wrote,
In the darkness the trees are full of starlight
henwy

Cheer up, buttercup

I was looking back through the last 20 entries or so o and I this thing and realized it's a depressing slog. I guess I tend to only write, ramble, and ruminate in here when things are going badly in one way or another. That has to give a pretty distorted view of how things are, especially if I come back one day to try to remember what that part of my life was like.

Things aren't actually terrible. There are quite a few reasons to be generally hopeful and I'm doing my be st to take steps forward. Richard and Melissa have been beyond amazing like always. Sometimes I don't really understand how I ended up with friends like this since I'm pretty sure I did nothing to deserve it. Dice tower con will be in a few days and I'm looking forward to seeing Curt and the others and helping out at the booth.

Mt exercise routine has also continued apace and I should cross my goal any day now. I think I was 228 point something yesterday morning which means I'm less than 2 pounds away. 227 is the magic number because that's the point which the BMI tips over from obese to just overweight for my height. You don't usually see many people celebrating the fact that they're just overweight but it's a matter of perspective. I have to admit I feel pretty proud of myself overall.

When I get back to Jersey on the 10th there's another surgery scheduled for the 11th. Assuming everything goes well, that should be the last that I'll need for the foreseeable future. That's also the end of an Era in a way. It feels like I'm right on the edge of closing out more than a few chapters on my life and, if I'm lucky, starting a new one. There's reason to be optomisitic....I hope.
Tags: dice tower con, mental state, weight loss
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